Out from the grid for 24 hours

I am so disappointed....
i can blame the weather...
i can blame the stupid system...
i can blame the court....
i can blame my team mates....
i can blame the referee...
i can everyone!!!
i can even blame the world....
NO....
NO....
NO....
this time... its me....
i gonna blame ME....
i gonna put the blame on myself....
cause its my own problem.... yes.... its me that din do my best....

haix.... dun know y.... since coming to Uni... everything seem not right to me...
2 years... nothing seem to be a success for me... haix...

well, Thomas edison once said this when he finally found the way to make bulb after 1000 times failure... he said:" i did not fail for 1000 times, but i found 1000 ways not to make a bulb"...
thats him... optimistic person.... dEr...

another chinese saying :" failure is the mother of success"....

well.... sometimes failure will act as water to put off the fire in u....

haix... since the last 2 years.... i fail almost everything i did.... md...
i really disappointed with myself....
u c... for this past 2 years...
my study so so only...
my love life SUCKS....
my financial status critical...
my knees pain like hell till i cant sleep at nite...
my left toe like wanna broke only.... damn pain...

ppl expect me to be happy and laughing for 24/7...they expect me to bring laughter to them every singel day.... sometimes im a good pretender... i can pretend that im happy... but pls guys... im human too.... same as u all... dun la expect me to do things that u cant even do... pls... dun expect me to be prefect.... cause now im in deep shit... i wanna save myself b4 its too late...

damn tiao... haha.... i really wanna laugh at myself.... so pity....
my confident level only above the ankle level only lo....

I WANNA BE OUT FROM THE GRID!!!!!!!!!!!

p/s: thats y im taking today... this 24hours to stay away from everything... to just damn give me some space.... pls dun sms/call/msn/ wat so ever way to communicate with me... pls let me alone... FOR AT LEAST 24 HOURS....

SRC kiss goodbye

Attn: Out-of-date entry AGAIN!!!

wow.... its a damn good experience lo... haha....
SRC aka student rep committee... UTAR had its SRC election last month... Perak campus was the most active campus in the sense that 6 teams joined that election...
AND im one of them lo... me and my team mates all did our best~~~~

In this SRC election, i took up and contested for the Vice chairman post...
well... eventually i lost la.... to a more popular guy.... i lost but my pride still standing high!!!
as i said... i LOST but stil standing and i will still ROX!!!!!!!!! HELL YEAH!!!!!!!

anyhow... 3 out of 7 of my team mates won their respective post....
kahyee who contested for Chairman post won, kharil who stood for the auditor post won and last but not least Clement wong won the FSET Rep post...
congrats guys.... hope u all keep up the good work....

its not easy to do all this... seriously... from forming team, preparing,banners,campaingning and finally THE ELECTION DAY... all these are damn tiring....
for this SRC thing, i only get to sleep for average 3 hours for 15 days... YA!!! 15 damn days... wahlao... damn tiring...

haha... well... its wat v need to do lo... cant complain much also... hehe....

but i got some bad experiences la...
well, even before the campaign period started... rumours alrealy hot in the air d... md...
ppl started to spread rumours and asked not to vote to me... mcb.... all sort of thing la...

the worst is that after i know i lost d... another rumours started...
ppl started to tell me that got ppl sabotaged my campaign... some of them are my TEAM MATEs and some are my friends.... haha.... the 1st reaction i gave them when they told me bout all this is:"oh...ya ah... well... all over d... just fuck them la"

but at least during this src things i knew more and more friends lo....
haha.... at least i know i got ppl supported me ma....wakakaka.....

i told me supporters and team mates... win or loss is nothing... the most important thing is to win the heart of students and also win the posters war!!!
important thing is to ROX during campaign time and it turn out that it is true... WE were the
most colourful team during campaign period...

thanks to all my friends to support me during my speech...haha... i know the speech was ROX!!! hahaha... thanks for all ur response and support.... wakakak....





my team's mobile board with our faces on it...hehe... S.E.R.V.E , thats out team names :)



my damn hardcore supporters... thanks guy...(form left: nareen,CM,iyngaran,seng)


my team mates.... haha....thanks for fighting 2gether...
(from left: kahyee,kharil,rachel,clement,eng aunn,sam and ME)

damn... our nice small little small flag... haha.... damn... v did bout 1000 of them BY HAND!!!!
so nice...

campaign period.... and of course... i brought all my KUMAs to our boot to support us... hahaha... WHOLE Kuma's family were they lo... so cute....
pssh... the girl on the left damn cute lo!

ACTING!!!!! #$%@

our posters haha...

this is a gift from one of the hardcore supporter... so cute and lovely.... touching...

happy KUMAs family..... Kuma:" v support ahxian... v love him so much"

haha... here m i... with my kuma-kuma.... haha....

well... banners and posters war!!!!!


i would like to dedicate this entry to all my supporters... although i lost... i promise i will do wat i i promised... "i promise, i deliver"!!!!

i also would like to say im sorry to all of u that voted me... im sorry as i lost and dissapointed
u all....

i would like to thank all my supporters and also all who helped me during my election time... really thank u all....
without u all.... i wont even join the SRC...
without u all.... i wont even hav time to finish all works...
without u all... i wont have the guts to stand and give a damn ROX speech...

thanks to all my hardcore supporters for staying up with me for 15 nites....
thanks to 1519... thanks for letting me to use our house as my base...
thanks to my team mates... without u all... no way v can got this far...
thanks to angie for staying to listen to my speech...
thanks to ahseng,christ,kelvin,cm,iyngaran, for helping me as though u all were standing for the election!!!!!!!!!! THANKS......

KISS GOODBYE SRC.....

recently... i started to keep fishes in my house.... hahaha....
here are some pics la.... later only i give all the details....

Talent Time

ATTN: out of date entry...!!!!

ok.... this is the Utar Kampar 2008 MAY in take Talent Time Night....

wow... sound cool???
ya... its a damn good event and a really nice and organized event....
kudo to all the committee that spend countless days and nites to get this event a GOOD and DAMN ROX 1!!!!!!!!!!!


aiyah...
i got involve la... but only as a SMALL stage crew la... nothing to show off...
wakakaka....


u know... my friends ask me...
"eh... u always is the organiser ma... y now u in UTAR always be small small post de??"
well... wat to do... this is the system of UTAR do things lo...
Friends pull friends... wakaka....
anyhow... i told them this stupoid thing:" a good leader must also be a good follower!"
haha... thats y i go for helper post...
haha...
this is just to talk Co*k la.... hahah....

well.... here we go...

Dance club members... damn cool le... love them...

winner of this edition of Talent Time... Duyou & Ash....
they sang The Red Jumpsuit - Your Guardian Angel... damn nice la...

bunch of crazy ppl as me... haha...my lest side is Jason... 2nd runner up... the B-Box man!!!!

i LOVE this pic so damn much.... i look so CUTE man... "pluek"hahaha
this pair is twin... 1st runner up... dancer...

night view in UTAR....

preparation work.... so tiring...

the stage...

1 day b4 D-day.....

my Friends... all helpers.... ROX......(sorry for my hand...)

last but not least... this white shirt guy is BEN!!!!!!!!!

IM BACK

IM BACK!!!!
yahoo....
phew... so damn happy to be back....been so so so many things up lately...
aiyah... got ppl ask me y i stop blogging d...?? they ask me i gave up on blogging???
NO NO NO.... here's the reasons (or rather excuses) i dont blog lately...
1) im damn busy lo... hahaha... sleep also no time
2) im in no mood to blog... really... sad+happy+lonely+missing some1+++++++
3) connection here lately damn SUX.... hahaha...
4) bought a new guitar so spend all my time playing with it... wakakaka....
5) need to study also ma....

DONT worry...
i'll update all i did recently...
ok???

i'll use today to blog watever i din blog...

but here i wanna add something 1st la... been 7 months d lo... in Kampar... wahlao... 7 months le... so freaking boring and long period lo... hahaha.... but i still survive lo... hahaha....
well... yesterday nite i sat outside of my house and just relax...
i realise that i miss alot of ppl lo...
i miss my mom...i miss my dad... i miss my elder sister... i miss my 2nd sister.... i miss my baby sister.... i miss ah girl so so so damn much.... i miss all my friends in malacca... i miss Dato Tan.... i miss my friends in Setapak.... i miss damn many ppl lo...

wat to do.... im in here... alone....
but at least i got my housemates.... really love them...
but at least i got my friends here... really love them....
but at least i got new friends i knew during SRC..... respect u all...
but at least i got my kaki futsal.... need u all man....
wakakaka....

so... i think i not that lonely lo.... just that i miss u all lo....


p/s: i fell in love with The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus's your guardian angel....