PIANG!!!破了

5 mins back.... "piang"~~~~
the voice was so loud! so loud that i had to cover my ears...
but the voice was so deafening that i was so blur.... it kept coming...
and i relised that the voice comes from within myself...
ya... WITHIN... n im not suprise at all... cause the heart was broken ONCE again....

2days back got a call from one of my friend... haha... i really doubting that she's from earth lo....mayb she was from mars le... hehe... well, she asked and told me something that are very important for me... at least for this very moment lo...
here's part of our conversation(some in chinese la)

Friend: hey... ok or not??
Me : y ask? i something wrong meh?
Friend: Ya la... just now c u also wan die die de pattern!
Me : Haix... got bit problem la... but ok de la... btw... y call?
Friend: just wanna ask u ma.somemore miss u.(this "miss" word is contain no weight at ALL!)
Me : Tiao la...miss ge lan!
Friend: *&x?@... u wan die ah!
Me : @#$:?..... dun use vulgar words on me!!
(yes...v use all sort of vulgar words in conversation.And yes... Friend = SHE!!!)
Friens: So u sad la?
Me : Bit bit la...

Lame conversation continued for another half an hour...

Friend: 死了都要爱?
Me : Dun know le...haha... wat a stupid Question u asking oh!!!!
Friend: yala... MD... 死了都要爱?
Me :Ya...死了都要爱!!!!
Friend: haix... dun know u la....

lame conversation continued...

Me : ok la... wan sleep liao... bye
Friend: ok... nite
Me : Somemore?
Friend: huh?? wats more....
Me : @#$%>....
Friend: @#$%&.....oh ok ok ... remember d!I MISS U! enough?
(told u the "Miss" word no weight at all-_-")
Me : ok ok... good good
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back to now....
just wanna ask la....

hey...
actually wat happened le???
i really blur lo.... really dun know anything... mayb im too unsensative d or im too stupid lo....
i remembered few weeks back all were OK de le... everything was fine and happy le...
y suddenly all this coolness ne??

I did something wrong?? then just tell me...
I forgot something??? then just remind me...
I said something wrong?? then just correct me...

c'on... just wanna know....
no matter wat, all i need is u to be honest to me lo... just tell me wat happen and i'll do wat is needed... even the final move.... that's is to say byebye...
Is this too much to ask???
im just asking u to tell me lo.... just be honest with me...
i dun wan things to just happen... i dun wan it just goes by eventhough i dun realise it lo...
hope u understand....

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i once said :" truth is painful but lies are worst"....
well, its very very true...
Although sometimes truth are painful but at least we will know it and learn to live with it...
But then for lies... although the lies are meant for good lies but it will somehow someday make the person suffer also... and this will be worst!!!!
Cause the person now need to learn to live with the truths and also the lies..... how can???